"The thing about patriarchy is that individual men, gay and straight, are often really wonderful people who you love deeply, but they have internalized some really poisonous shit. So every once in a while they say or do something that really shakes you because you’re no longer totally certain they see you as a human being, and you feel totally disempowered to explain that to them."
I feel so uncomfortable right now, Jesus Christ. first and foremost, it makes me uncomfortable that this iPhone makes me look erratically grammatically correct and a lot more proper than I intend to be (because talking in all lowercase letters without apostrophes grants me a strange comfort that what I’m saying is just a not-thought-through stream of consciousness kind of thing, whereas the capitalization makes me feel like every word I write is intentional and thought out)
second, I hate that i can’t feel comfortable in this hot fucking city, not only because I sweat off all my makeup and my sweaters are collecting dust, but because I don’t feel particularly settled down here because next September ill be out of here and I don’t know where I’m going to live after that soOoO
thirdly because I feel uncomfortable in my body because my two meals today were ihop and Taco Bell and I can’t seem to stay healthy for more than 3 days at a time
fourthly because I’m in my underwear and the blinds are open a tiny bit and I’m afraid my roommate will walk by and see my butt and tummy rolls but I took zzquil already and don’t think I’ll be getting up again tonight
lastly (well the list doesn’t really end here but the aforementioned sleep aid is strting to work) I am deeply concerned about where I will settle eventually and have a family and where ill have my career which seems silly because I’m only 20 but at the same time I’m already 20
and this has been a post that normally I would instantly cancel before publishing for lack of a reason for anyone to see it but this can be an exception I guess yay you who just read it all yay
Yay I hate this fucking haircut
it always really stresses me out to come on to this account cause I have like 3 stupid blogs and never know which one to post things to and don’t you just hate being disorganized?
life is cradling me in its warm happy hands and i feel fat and great
tumblr is the loneliest thing i have ever done
"…A strange art, music; the most poetic and precise of all the arts, vague as a dream and exact as algebra."
Guy de Maupassant (via mirroir)
I love how Gabe wasn’t mentioned at all in The Office Retrospective.
after an hour of ugly sobbing over this episode this post made me laugh so hard